Here's what I think

YOU ARE rude and inconsiderate, selfish and use people

YOU DON'T deserve my attention, my love, my consideration

I REFUSE to feel that way ever again, to be ignored and to play games

I SHOULD know better by now, apologize, get over it

I AM different, changed, still a flirt, stubborn

I WANT more, strength, nothing

YOU SHOULD KNOW it won't be the same, I'm not easy, I love you...despite it all

and yet, what a fictional character says applies for both

"Don't worry. I'm essentially a selfish creature.

I crave your company too much to do what I should"

~Edward