Smile though your heart is aching

This isn't who I am
I've lost the balance, lost all the faith and hope that used to be a part of me
I'm bitter and angry, unsatisfied
I don't want to be that person
I want to be happy, to smile and flirt,
I'm trying I'm trying so hard and still none of it makes sense

I wish there was a place, a place I could go where my life was spread out before me, the good and the bad. Every decision and memory in its place. And then I could sort through it all, rearrange, choose who I want to be.

I can fix it, it's all there...I can make it better

I'm as confused as you

I saw a man with a top hat today, he might have had a cane as well...I was too bamboozled to notice