Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Smile though your heart is aching

This isn't who I am
I've lost the balance, lost all the faith and hope that used to be a part of me
I'm bitter and angry, unsatisfied
I don't want to be that person
I want to be happy, to smile and flirt,
I'm trying I'm trying so hard and still none of it makes sense

I wish there was a place, a place I could go where my life was spread out before me, the good and the bad. Every decision and memory in its place. And then I could sort through it all, rearrange, choose who I want to be.

I can fix it, it's all there...I can make it better

1 comment:

Cellar door said...

i love you baby. you'll figure it out.

don't do anymore stupid things, please, i couldn't handle losing you.